Post 38- Musical Release

Dear Journal,

Music is such a release to me. Sometimes the right song will take me back years, sometimes new songs will stop me in my track and really make me think. Last night I went home after eating a delicious very summery dinner with my Amanda's and talking to them about counseling. Sometimes, being strong is the ability to say that you are weak, seeking out help when you need it, and knowing when to say enough. I am not going this along. I am traveling down this path with my husband, my journaling, a professional therapist, and my friends. I am also healing by the help of music. I know that sounds ridiculous but it is true.

I was listening to music last night, trying to relax, trying to calm my breathing and my body. I was trying a relaxation technique taught to me by my childhood therapist. I listen to music and I think about each part of my body and I imagine that part relaxing. I start with my feet and go to my head. I thought she was crazy but it really works. I tune out everything and simply focus on those parts of my body. Right before doing this a song came on, a new one from Rascal Flatts, and I loved the lyrics so much I immediately googled it (Do the google!) and found the lyrics and video:

I Wont Let Go- Rascal Flatts

It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It's breaks your will
It feels like that

You think your lost
But your not lost on your own
Your not alone
I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I wont let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I won't let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I wont let you down
It wont get you down
Your gonna make it
Yea I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Wont let you go
No I won't

I added the song to my list that a couple of friends have inspired me to make and expand my music taste. I've been listening to a lot of different music and while I have always had an eclectic music collection but Ive really been adding to it. There are old and new songs I have been adding to my MP3 player. Some I have had around for awhile but revisited, others are new to me. Saving Abel is one I just discovered. A few of the songs I've added, or played quite a few times this week are listed here:

1. Ace Up Your Pretty Sleeve-Vince Gill
   
2. Barb Wire Halo- Jimmy Baldwin
   
3. Beautiful Day- Saving Abel
   
4. Breath You Take- George Straight
   
5. First Love Song-Luke Bryan
   
6. Hallelujah- Rufus Wainwright
   
7. He Said, She Said-Joe Purdy
   
8. I never told you- Colbie Cailiat
   
9. I Wont Let Go- Rascal Flatts
   
10. Just Like You- Three Days Grace
    
11. Life After You- Chris Daughtry
    
12. Listen-Amos Lee
    
13. Live Your Life- Rihanna
    
14. Man on a Tractor- Rodney Atkins
    
15. Not Afraid- Eminem
    
16. People Fall in Love- Mason Douglas
    
17. Round Here- Doug McCormick
    
18. Sailed Away- Saving Abel
    
19. The Freshman-Jay Brannan
    
20. These Things I Pray- Dan Evans
    
21. Things Like That (These Days)- Joe Nichols
    
22. Twilight Serenade- Jason Myles Goss
    
23. Warm Whispers- Missy Higgins
    
24. Wonderful World- Israel Kamakawio'ole
    
25. Wont Back Down-Mat Kearney
    
26. You're the Reason I Come Home- Ron Pope
    

I've always been one to listen to lyrics. I like rhythm, tone and beat but I really tend to be a lyrics girl. If the music is God awful I wont even get around to listening to the lyrics. This week has been about lyrics for me. Here is a sample of some of the lyrics from the above songs.

Ace Up Your Pretty Sleeve-Vince Gill

Baby I'm a good man
No matter what you heard

And I'll be there for you
When you need me to be
I'll be the sun at your door
I'll be the wind in your trees
If I've nothin' at all on the surface to see
I'll be the ace up your pretty sleeve

 

Beautiful Day- Saving Abel

Cause it's a beautiful day
It's a beautiful sunrise
And I can't stand to see you cry
But I can take away your pain

Breath You Take- George Strait

But life's not the breath you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain't what it's all about
You just might miss the point
Trying to win the race
Life's not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

 

I Never Told You- Colbie Caillat

This one reads like a break up song, but with a deployed husband it just fit.

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you

Live Your Life- Rihanna/ T.I

This one was so appropriate after the recent situation.

Hey, never mind what haters say
Ignore 'em 'til they fade away
Amazin' they ungrateful
After all the game I gave away

 

Warm Whispers- Missy Higgins

Your warm whispers
Out of the dark they carry my heart
Your warm whispers
Into the dawn they carry me through
And I'm weeping warm honey and milk
That you stay surrounding me, surrounding me
Your warm whispers
Letting me drown in a pool of you
Your warm whispers
Keeping the noise from breaking through
And I'm weeping warm honey and milk
That you stay surrounding me, surrounding me
Yeah I'm weeping warm honey and milk that you
Stay surround me, surrounding me
Honey stay surrounding me

 

You're the Reason I Come Home- Ron Pope

You're the reason I come home.
You're the reason I come home, my love.
You're the reason that when everything I know falls apart...
Well, you're the reason I come home.